briankeever.com

Why has developing this website been so difficult for me?

briankeever.com is now entering its second year and still has no substantive content. I am embarrassed by that fact and have been asking myself why that is and how can I change that into a more productive reality. Creating a website is not an overly difficult task. The tools and technical background are well within my grasp. I have spent the last decade working with computer graphics and animation in a variety of formats and environments although most of my work has generally been creating and maintaining construction and engineering drawings. Computer science and its applications are very comfortable domains of thinking for me so the learning of new tools and techniques requires much less effort than other more unfamiliar domains of thinking. Because of this, I find that these things are relatively easy for me to learn and assimilate into my current definition of reality. In order to attempt to preserve some sense of lucidity to this post, allow me to postpone the definition and explanation of some of the expressions used here such as “my current definition of reality” and “domains of thinking” and so forth. I will present a fuller discussion of these concepts in future posts.  I am an honest person. I embrace uncertainty. These core personality traits lead me to re-evaluate the world and myself constantly and attempt to expand, expose, and integrate my knowledge and behavior. I have also come to the more recent discovery that this has had an interesting side effect of leaving me without a strong sense of personal identity. One of the most basic elements of starting a personal website is to explain oneself to the audience which means telling them who you are. Well, it is no wonder then that I have been drawing a bit of a blank when I sit down to try to develop an image and content that represents my identity. Part of the quandary that I find myself in is related to the concept of identity and how I was attempting to simplify myself enough to explain to others. Again more explanation of these ideas will be forthcoming.  So, instead of trying to fit myself into my own preconceived notions of what an “good person” is, I am more interested in honestly exploring myself and how I interact with my surroundings. By opening to the public what has previously been a very private, personal process I am entering a new phase of my life where I am opening myself to new experiences. Some of those experiences will likely be difficult and unpleasant.   Welcome to “the world, as viewed through the window of me”. Friends, old and new, and family are welcome to create accounts on my site which will allow them to post comments and have their say as well. I want this site to be an interactive experience which will serve as a place for me to both learn and share information and ideas.